Sunday, July 25, 2010

To My Dearest Granddaughters

This is a poem I wrote for the granddaughters of my grandmother Betty Jean Geer. We all have a guardian angel necklace that my grandmother also has on her hand in her casket. It is a special thing we can carry with us and pass onto to our children one day.




To My Dearest Granddaughters:



I am sorry I had to go at such a quick pace. My body was tired and I couldn’t win this race.

I thought of you as I drifted away and wanted you to know I am whole again, I am in a much better place.

I know it is hard to understand why I had to leave, but I am still with you now for whatever you may need. Take this pendant and I will too and when there are celebrations or hard times I will be there to see you through.

When he asks you to be his bride, wear your pendant as I will wear mine.

When your heart feels heavy and you feel like you can’t go on, wear your pendant and I will help you be strong. My dearest granddaughter you are beautiful to me and I will always be here waiting, just you wait and see.



I Love You Always!

I'm Back!

I apologize for my lack of blogging over the past year. Unfortunately, I had forgotten my password and as I was laying in bed tonight it hit me! I have definitely thought of this place many many times over the past year as life has changed, I wished many times I had a place to write out my feelings. I feel like it will take me a thousand posts just to process this whole year. It was nice to come back here and see that I actually have followers. I welcome you and your opinions and please feel free to post a link to your blog as long as the content is appropriate.

So here goes nothing...
Isn't it amazing to sometimes look back where you were a year ago to see how you have grown? I celebrated my birthday this week. It ended up being just a very mellow day with the kids since my husband had to work. It was nice though, my daughter woke up and the first thing she did is come tell me happy birthday. It meant the World to me that telling me happy birthday was her first thought. I took some time to reflect and think of what changes I could make of myself "Mommy, Wife, Child, and Believer". I know most people hate getting older but for now I am embracing it. I am grateful for each day I am given.

A few major things have happened in my life since my last post. My grandmother went home to be with the Lord about 5 weeks ago. It is so difficult to see someone you care about be in pain and go through what she went through. She went into the hospital with stomach pain and didn't come out til an angel came to take her to her true home. Her treatment in the hospital was incredibly below standards and it ultimately caused her death. She was such a sweet and loving grandmother. When I was little one of my fondest memories was decorating who Christmas tree every year. She loved to decorate her home and her family around her as much as possible. The last time she and I got to spend some quality time together before she got sick will be the memory I will carry with me for the rest of my life. My mother, grandmother, and I went to hear my dads group sing at a local church. In the middle of that concert my grandmother grabbed my hand and we went to the altar together. We held each other and cryed together. It was so precious.

So shortly before she passed I had a cancer scare. I had surgery about 4 weeks ago and by prayers no cancerous cells ended up being found! Praise God! It was hard for me to go into the hospital without my grandmother. She promised she would be there when I had it. But I know she was watching over me. I am actually doing pretty well now. My pains seem to be better, but only time will tell.

My husband and I have gone through financial turmoil this year. After I lost my job my health continued to go down hill, so I was unable to work. It put strain on everything, our marriage and our relationships with others. You truly begin to see true colors and true friends when you are going through difficult times. We are getting there though. I finally feel like some stress is releasing from us. We are very grateful for all of the people who have helped us out. My parents and his parents have gone above and beyond for us.

On a lighter and much more positive note my dads group Trinity Gospel Trio made it on the Christian Voice Magazine top 100 charts!! Last month the debuted at #79 this month they moved up to #69!! I pray they keep climbing but just to be included on any chart is an amazing blessing! They had their homecoming a few months ago with Brian Free & Assurance and it was wonderful. Brian Free and the guys were so nice. Jeremy Lile is crazy with the bass...I literally felt the floor vibrate.

Thanks for reading! I will be posting more soon (now that I have my password again).